MY THOUGHTS, MY LIFE, MY STORY

How can something be so sweet yet so bitter? This year has been more than I ever imagined. I learned to be myself, I found out who I am and most importantly I found my people. The place where I fit in. The place that makes me happy. At the beginning of this year, I came here with hopes and dreams and in 20 days I´m leaving with memories. The connections I made this year and the life I built for myself will be nothing more than that: a memory. The joy this year has brought me is indescribable. When I think of leaving, I feel like I´m ripping out a part of myself. Even though I miss my family like crazy, I wish I could stay. Stay and keep living out this dream of mine. But maybe that´s a good thing, right? Having the dilemma of wanting to stay but also wanting to go. It´s a bittersweet feeling. Knowing you will never feel completely at home from now on, because part of your family will always be on the other side of the world, no matter where you are. I will forever say that this was the best decision I ever made but also the worst. Because even though it brought me so much happiness and joy, I know this is going to hurt. Leaving this place is going to be the hardest thing I´ll ever do. My heart is in two places at once. My heart will always be in two places at once. Part of my heart will always stay in Pullman.